QA問答：作為一個(gè)非常英俊的男人，你的生活是什么樣的？

As I got older, everyone around me settled down but emotionally I couldn’t do it. I passed the age of 35 and I still couldn’t function in a regular relationship without thinking about being with someone else. I had become too addicted to lust. Love meant nothing. Love meant restrictions. Love meant not being able to use my super power of good looks any more. It was crippling.
When I was searching for a wife, I found myself asking myself “is she good looking enough to take me off the market when I’m in such high demand.” Yes I was that disgusting.

隨著年齡的增長，我周圍的每個(gè)人都安頓下來了，但在情感上我做不到。我已經(jīng)35歲了，我沒有想過要和別人在一起，無法和別人建立正常的聯(lián)系。我已經(jīng)對欲望上癮了。愛沒有任何意義。愛意味著限制。愛意味著不能再使用我的漂亮外表的超能力。這種行為有嚴(yán)重危害。
當(dāng)我在尋找妻子的時(shí)候，我發(fā)現(xiàn)自己在問自己：“她長得漂亮嗎？當(dāng)我的需求如此之高的時(shí)候，她能把我從市場上帶走嗎？”是的，我真是太惡心了。

Today I’m paying for that. I’m lonely, and not loving it. I want to settle down but there isn’t many available 40 year olds to satisfy my lustful nature. They’re all either divorced with kids or dare I say “rejects” of the gene pool (I know disgusting again). Oh and one more thing…I’m not good looking anymore. Lost my hair, my skin sunk and the late nights caught up with me. Baggy eyes and gray all over. No girl looks at me like they once did.
If you’re a handsome man, make sure you build other qualities to back that up and settle down! don’t hurt any lady! I hurt so many and I know they would be happy I ended up like this. I hope they’re all doing well with someone who loves them and appreciates them.

今天我要為此付出代價(jià)。我很孤獨(dú)，我不喜歡它。我想安定下來，但沒有多少40歲的人可以滿足我好色的本性。他們要么離婚了還帶著一個(gè)孩子，要么我敢說我從基因深處排斥她們（我知道，我又惡心了）。哦，還有一件事……我不再好看了。我的頭發(fā)掉了，皮膚暗沉了，熬夜的代價(jià)終于要買單了。眼袋大，全身灰白。沒有一個(gè)女孩像以前那樣看著我了。
如果你是一個(gè)英俊的男人，務(wù)必確保你建立了其他品質(zhì)來支持你的英俊，并安定下來！不要傷害任何女士！我傷了這么多人，我知道他們會(huì)很高興我得到這樣的結(jié)果。我希望他們和愛他們、欣賞他們的人相處得很好。

Anonymous
I was very fortunate to be a tall (6′5″) handsome man. I had a fun loving personality and women really enjoyed my company. I was living in California and had a girlfriend after college. The industry I was in was loaded with women. Many were my clients although I never slept with a client. At one point I thought monogamy was a piece of wood! Yes I had a girlfriend but in my twenties and not married, I was enjoying other women as well. And why shouldn’t I?? At one point I counted the woman I slept with and it was over 50! Not many compared to Wilt who claimed 20,000. Is 50 too many?

我很幸運(yùn)能成為一個(gè)高大（6英尺5英寸，1.9558米）的帥哥。我有一個(gè)有趣的性格，女人們真的很喜歡我的陪伴。我住在加利福尼亞，大學(xué)畢業(yè)后有一個(gè)女朋友。我所在的行業(yè)有很多女性。許多人是我的客戶，盡管我從未與客戶睡覺。我一度認(rèn)為一夫一妻制是收集木材！是的，我有一個(gè)女朋友，但在我二十幾歲還沒結(jié)婚的時(shí)候，我也喜歡其他女人。為什么我不應(yīng)該？？有一次我數(shù)了數(shù)和我睡覺的女人，結(jié)果超過了50！與聲稱 20,000個(gè)的威爾特相比，數(shù)量不多。50個(gè)太多了嗎？

I was on a roll and this train would not stop. Finally at 32, I met my wife and settled down and grew past that immature phase. I was very respectful with all those ladies and they wanted it as much as I did. I would never pressure them or make them feel uncomfortable. The one thing I am glad about is that I waited until my 30’s to get married. I had met a girl in college and we were to be married after we finished school. I was so young, had no money, and was a womanizer. It never would have worked. She was my dream girl and 40 years later I still think about her alot. We were both way to young and needed to get out and experience life. I have been married for 25 years and am very happy with my wife and the way our lives have worked out. I still appreciate a beautiful woman but know that I can read the menu, I just can’t eat!

我正滾滾向前，這列火車不會(huì)停下來。終于在32歲的時(shí)候，我遇到了我的妻子，安頓了下來，度過了那個(gè)不成熟的階段。我對所有這些女士都很尊重，她們想要的就是我所做的。我永遠(yuǎn)不會(huì)給他們壓力，也不會(huì)讓他們感到不舒服。有一件事我很高興，那就是我一直等到30多歲才結(jié)婚。我曾經(jīng)在大學(xué)碰到過一個(gè)女孩，我們本計(jì)劃在畢業(yè)的時(shí)候結(jié)婚，但是我太年輕了，沒有錢，還是個(gè)風(fēng)流坯子。她是我的夢中情人，40年后，我仍然很想念她。我們都是年輕人，需要走出去體驗(yàn)生活。我已經(jīng)結(jié)婚25年了，我和我的妻子以及我們的生活方式都很幸福。我仍然很欣賞每個(gè)漂亮的女人，但我知道我能看菜單，但是我不能吃！
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Steven Sprague
Everyone comes on to you, men and women. At the same time are jealous of you and want to take you down. To their level. Want’s to be part of your life to upgrade theirs without having to earn it. Privilege's open doors at every level, but at the cost of others needing your attention. If you don’t return a smile, you’re an instant enemy. No one wants to know you, only to be on the surface. They want to control you so they can have you, the good looking guy, be under them.

每一個(gè)接近你的人，男人和女人。他們嫉妒你，想把你打倒，讓你和他們處于同樣的水平。同時(shí)又想成為你生活的一部分，升級(jí)他們的生活，而不必為此付出代價(jià)。特權(quán)就是可以打開任何一個(gè)層級(jí)的大門，但是代價(jià)就是其他人需要你的關(guān)注。如果你不報(bào)以微笑，你馬上就會(huì)成為敵人。沒人想真正了解你，他們想要的只是你的外表。他們想控制你，這樣他們就可以擁有你，看：那個(gè)帥哥，在他們的控制之下。

When I was a boy in the third grade, boys wanted to fight me, attack me in every way. Girls chased my at recess to try to kiss me and tear at my clothes. In senior year, my friends girlfriend kept a schedule for girls that wanted to date me and at what time, what event. It was so surface oriented. I knew from a very early age, kindergarten actually, that I appreciated the soft, non-aggressive girls that would potentially want to know me, not my fa?ade. I learned what an ego was early on and the need to control it. That was the blessing of my good looks.

當(dāng)我還是一個(gè)三年級(jí)的男孩時(shí)，男孩們想和我打架，從各個(gè)方面攻擊我。休息時(shí)，女孩們追著我，試圖親吻我，撕扯我的衣服。在大四的時(shí)候，我的朋友，一個(gè)女性朋友為那個(gè)些想和我約會(huì)的女孩制定了一個(gè)時(shí)間表，在什么時(shí)間，什么活動(dòng)。它是如此浮于表面。事實(shí)上，我從很小的時(shí)候就知道，我很欣賞那些溫柔、沒有攻擊性的女孩，她們可能想了解我，而不是我的外表。我很早就知道了什么是自我，以及控制自我的必要性。這一切就是美貌給予我的賜福。

I can now appreciate the feminine in women and repel the masculine as it is pure competition. Having the most beautiful women throwing themselves at me made me aware of the surface mentality of attraction, want and the ego.
I never wanted anything to do with baseless attraction. I could have had sex at 13 but held out till 18 when I was with a girl I thought I would marry. Even then, only what I could count on my fingers. Without a deep connection, sex to me is of the head. A worthless assault to prove to others she had sex with me. I would not give her that or insult my being with a notch.

我現(xiàn)在可以欣賞女性的女性氣質(zhì)，排斥女性的男性氣質(zhì)，因?yàn)檫@是純粹的競爭。最漂亮的女人向我撲來，讓我意識(shí)到表面上的吸引力、欲望和自我。
我從不想與毫無根據(jù)的吸引力有任何關(guān)系。我本來可以在13歲的時(shí)候做愛，但當(dāng)我和一個(gè)我認(rèn)為我會(huì)結(jié)婚的女孩在一起時(shí)，我堅(jiān)持到了18歲。即使那樣，次數(shù)也是屈指可數(shù)。如果沒有深層的聯(lián)系，性對我而言就是一次點(diǎn)頭。向別人證明她和我有性關(guān)系是一種毫無價(jià)值的攻擊。我不會(huì)給她這樣的機(jī)會(huì)，也不會(huì)侮辱我的存在。

I wanted to be trusted and to trust. To provide/protect and be respected for it. But my good looks worked against me in every setting as all wanted to bring me down. I could not just be the most I could be as all eyes were there to use me at my expense. The corporate world was treacherous. The world was not kind, only on the surface.
I became more recluse. Being attacked is not fun. Being used as a notch for women is not rewarding and baseless. My heart ached with the knowledge of being attractive and that women would not want to know me but assumed I was a dick head as all women were after me.

我想要被信任，也想要信任他人。給予他人和保護(hù)他人并因此受到尊重。但我的美貌在任何場合都對我不利，因?yàn)樗腥硕枷氚盐掖虻?。我沒有辦法做到我本可以做到的最好，因?yàn)槊恳浑p眼睛都在消耗著我。團(tuán)體的世界是變幻莫測的，世界不是善良的，一切都浮于表面。
我越來越喜歡獨(dú)處，被攻擊并不有趣。被女人們當(dāng)做一個(gè)標(biāo)志被獲取，既沒有回報(bào)，也毫無根據(jù)。后來，我有了這樣一個(gè)認(rèn)知，那些追求我的女人們根本不想了解我，他們假設(shè)我是個(gè)蠢貨，我真的很心痛。

It took turning 50 and many failures to come to the realization of appreciation for women. Only the feminine, sweet heart and humbleness has true meaning in a relationship of man to woman. The rest is ego and has no place in a relationship. The guy that is wading through it may not come to the realization because he hasn’t had women throwing themselves at him, chasing him. He is working to get their attention and will miss the true beauty of women. The true humble feminine in women. For this, now I can say it was worth the pain of having good looks. The full circle of a learned experience.

在實(shí)現(xiàn)對女性的欣賞上經(jīng)歷了多次失敗，到了50的時(shí)候，我終于明白了。在男人和女人的關(guān)系中，只有那種女人味的、有甜蜜的心、謙遜的女性才有意義。其余的都是女性的自我，對維護(hù)關(guān)系毫無價(jià)值。那些涉水而過的男人根本無法領(lǐng)會(huì)這些，因?yàn)闆]有女人追逐他們。他努力引起她們的注意，并將錯(cuò)過女人的真正美麗。女人身上真正謙遜的女性氣質(zhì)。因此，現(xiàn)在我可以說，擁有漂亮外表的痛苦是值得的。可以擁有學(xué)習(xí)經(jīng)驗(yàn)的完整循環(huán)。

Anonymous
Yes ,in your 20s you will feel like being the king of the world..I had all the attention of many beautiful girls..Girls who said to me on face that they would like to settle down with me as I was handsome,with good personality, reasonably doing well,funny and so on..Girls would just swarm around me.
But time goes by,the females in their 20s settle down with their husband.You miss them dearly but there is absolutely nothing you can do.

是的，在你20多歲的時(shí)候，你會(huì)覺得自己是世界之王。我受到了很多漂亮女孩的關(guān)注。女孩們表面上對我說，她們想和我安定下來，因?yàn)槲液軒?，個(gè)性很好，通情達(dá)理，風(fēng)趣幽默等等。女孩們會(huì)圍著我。
但隨著時(shí)間的推移，20多歲的女性會(huì)與丈夫安頓下來。你非常想念他們，但你絕對無能為力。

Also,me being in my mid 30s,hair goes off your head and there is not a lot you can do about it.You cannot manage your body as easily as you can do in your 20s.Yes it's a fact that as effortlessly and naturally body gets managed in your 20s it does not now..I used to eat like a bull but was like lean and muscular but not anymore now. I don't want be called balding and fat..It's just heartbreaking..

還有，到我30多歲的時(shí)候，你的頭發(fā)掉了，對此你無能為力。你不能像20多歲時(shí)那樣輕松地管理自己的身體。是的，這是一個(gè)事實(shí)，因?yàn)樵谀銈?0多歲的時(shí)候，身體可以毫不費(fèi)力地自然地得到控制，但現(xiàn)在不是了。我過去吃得像頭公牛，但是看起來又瘦又強(qiáng)壯，但是現(xiàn)在不是了。我不想被稱為禿頂和肥胖……這太令人心碎了……
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Also I am married now so it makes me sociallygo off the list of dating and the part where i come from people look upon you as a criminal if you slightly flirt with some woman if you are married..
Now the worst part is you ignore your career in your 20s because felt like a king in the world and it comes back to haunt you like a dragon later on.I lost my perspective and no matter what I do now I can't get the time I lost then and invested in my career instead of stupid womanizing..
People know you are handsome but they keep their distance from you as they know you are the one their mamma kept saying to keep your distance from..

另外，我現(xiàn)在已經(jīng)結(jié)婚了，所以這讓我從別人約會(huì)的名單上消失了，在我現(xiàn)在住的地方，如果你已婚時(shí)與某個(gè)女人輕微調(diào)情，人們會(huì)把你視為罪犯……
現(xiàn)在，最糟糕的事情是，你在20歲的時(shí)候，感覺自己是世界之王，你忽視了自己的事業(yè)，到了后來，這件事會(huì)像龍一樣纏繞著你。我沒有長遠(yuǎn)的目光，無論我現(xiàn)在怎么挽救，我都無法得到我失去的時(shí)間，我本應(yīng)該把它們投入我的事業(yè)之中，而不是愚蠢的去玩弄女人……
人們知道你很帥，但他們和你保持著距離，因?yàn)樗麄冎滥闶撬麄儖寢屢恢闭f的要保持距離的人……

Anonymous
I was a slob faced potato in my early teens and short in stature which gave me a lot of inferiority complex. Anxiety and mental feebleness were my constant companion. Depression set in very early and it was getting worse in my teens without my knowledge. I just used to think I was just a moody guy… but I had a lot artistic talent and penchant for sciences.

我十幾歲的時(shí)候是一個(gè)懶散的人，身材矮小，這讓我有很多自卑感。焦慮和精神衰弱是我永恒的伴侶。抑郁癥很早就開始了，在我十幾歲的時(shí)候，在我不知情的情況下變得越來越嚴(yán)重。我過去，只是認(rèn)為我是一個(gè)喜怒無常的人……但我有很多藝術(shù)天賦和對科學(xué)的愛好。
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Depression got aggravated when I was 16 years old and there was no looking back after that. I messed up my education badly and couldn’t get into a good college for my engineering. I was forced to compromise with some garbage college and mediocre classmates.
I became quite a looker by that time and had my fans in all of the departments in my college. It was highly flattering when the hotties, whom guys used to checkout, were checking me out. They used to check me out obsessively and ogle.
But my principles were intact… I didn’t trust this relationship thing and was of the opinion that love should be unique and having girlfriends and flings was an insult to my future wife. I wanted a girl whom I can love and more importantly marry. Many girls were frustrated that I never acknowledged and returned their gestures.
Meanwhile my depression was getting aggravated as I kept on realizing that I was a misfit in my engineering college. Shitty education system took its toll on me and I stopped studying in my second year itself. My equation with my own family became highly imbalanced and sour. I was so depressed that I couldn’t muster the energy to approach any girl for a companionship.

當(dāng)我16歲的時(shí)候，抑郁加劇了，從此再也沒有回頭路了。我把教育搞砸了，進(jìn)不了一所好的工程學(xué)院。我被迫與一些垃圾大學(xué)和平庸的同學(xué)妥協(xié)。
到那時(shí)，我已經(jīng)是一個(gè)很帥的人了，在我學(xué)院的所有系，都有我的粉絲。當(dāng)男人們跑去結(jié)賬時(shí)，辣妹們在幫我結(jié)帳，虛榮感真的爆棚。他們過去常常癡迷地盯著我看。
但我的原則是完整的……我不相信這種關(guān)系，我認(rèn)為愛情應(yīng)該是獨(dú)一無二的，有女朋友和情人是對我未來妻子的侮辱。我想要一個(gè)女孩，我可以愛，更重要的是結(jié)婚。許多女孩都很沮喪，因?yàn)槲覐膩頉]有承認(rèn)并回應(yīng)過她們的追求。
與此同時(shí)，當(dāng)我不斷意識(shí)到自己在工程學(xué)院并不適合時(shí)，我的抑郁情緒越來越嚴(yán)重。糟糕的教育體系讓我付出了代價(jià)，我在第二年就停止了學(xué)習(xí)。我與家人之間的關(guān)系變得極不平衡、酸澀。我是如此沮喪，以至于我無法集中精力去接近任何一個(gè)女孩尋求陪伴。

I flunked in multiple subjects and my CGPA at the end was a disaster which made me ineligible for Masters in many good colleges. My friends were equally sad at seeing a talented and brilliant guy getting screwed up in life.
I joined in a Masters course in a good college and wanted to start a new future but my depression kicked in again. I never understood that it was actually called as depression because it was bipolar which I feel is a very slippery kind of depression.
I fell in love with my senior for the first time and it was an absolute disaster. She trapped me by luring me with her smiles and stares. I couldn’t resist her beauty and she indeed was a rage in our department. As we belonged to different ethnicity and communities she couldn’t even think about convincing her family.

我在多個(gè)科目上都不及格，最終我的CGPA是一場災(zāi)難，這使我沒有資格進(jìn)入許多好學(xué)院的碩士學(xué)位。看到一個(gè)才華橫溢的人在生活中陷入困境，我的朋友們同樣感到難過。
我在一所好大學(xué)里參加了一門碩士課程，想開創(chuàng)一個(gè)新的未來，但我的抑郁癥又發(fā)作了。我從來都不知道它實(shí)際上被稱為抑郁癥，因?yàn)樗请p相型障礙的，我覺得這是一種棘手的的抑郁癥。
我的第一次，是愛上了我的學(xué)姐，這絕對是一場災(zāi)難。她用微笑和眼神引誘我，把我困住了。我無法抗拒她的美麗，她是我們系的一個(gè)風(fēng)尚標(biāo)。由于我們屬于不同的種族和社區(qū)，她甚至想都不敢說服她的家人。

I became ill with a serious health condition and was hospitalized for 6 months after that while she got placed in a good company. She stopped contacting and I kept falling into an endless pit of misery. I lost my career again as my scores took a toss and I lost all good placements.
I was jobless and lonely… such a far cry from how I was in my graduation days… A guy who had an endless supply of admiration and attention was now suddenly in a huge vacuum.

我生病了，身體狀況很糟糕，在她被安置到一家好公司時(shí)，我在醫(yī)院住了6個(gè)月。她停止了聯(lián)系，我不斷陷入無盡的痛苦之中。我再次失去了我的職業(yè)生涯，因?yàn)槲业姆謹(jǐn)?shù)受到了影響，我失去了所有的好位置。
我失業(yè)了，很孤獨(dú)……與我畢業(yè)時(shí)的樣子大不相同……一個(gè)擁有無盡欽佩和關(guān)注的人現(xiàn)在突然陷入了巨大的真空。

I slipped finally into a terrible depression and even hair loss was setting in. I couldn’t work in any company for a long time as I felt those jobs were brain dead with no creativity.
I failed to get a girl multiple times… My hair loss made me feel like a wreck. I aggravated my depression to extreme extent when I started using oral Finasteride. I got treated unfairly by people whom I loved and it messed up mind further.
My job resume looked like a cloth which got eaten by mice… it was PATHETIC…

我最終陷入了嚴(yán)重的抑郁，甚至開始脫發(fā)。我不能在任何一家公司工作很長時(shí)間，因?yàn)槲矣X得那些工作讓我腦死亡，沒有創(chuàng)造力。
我好幾次都沒能找到一個(gè)女孩……我的脫發(fā)讓我覺得自己像個(gè)失敗者。當(dāng)我開始使用口服非那雄胺時(shí)，我的抑郁加劇到了極點(diǎn)。我被我愛的人不公平地對待，這讓我的思想更加混亂。
我的簡歷看起來像一塊被老鼠吃掉的布……真可憐……

I was without any job experience… a bloody undesirable bachelor… at one point of time I was touted by my family and friends as the perfect guy every girl could dream of!
I managed to join a company again in some shitty job because I have wasted my life enough and I needed some solid ground to rest my feet on…
I still get glances from girls… I am in my thirties and fortunately I still look like I am in my early twenties… but NO LUCK in love again…

我沒有任何工作經(jīng)驗(yàn)……一個(gè)該死的不受歡迎的單身漢……有一段時(shí)間，我被家人和朋友吹捧為每個(gè)女孩都?jí)裘乱郧蟮耐昝滥腥耍?br /> 我設(shè)法再次加入一家公司做了一份糟糕的工作，因?yàn)槲依速M(fèi)了足夠的生命，我需要一些堅(jiān)實(shí)的基礎(chǔ)來讓我得到喘息之機(jī)……
我仍然受到女孩們的目光……我三十多歲了，幸運(yùn)的是，我看起來仍然像二十幾歲出頭……但運(yùn)氣不佳再也沒有再次談戀愛……

I approached few girls who showed their interest in me but they activated their bitch mode immediately… they behaved as if I am not supposed to be talking to them! I went through a lot of awkward crap in this issue and couldn’t guess how two faced people can be. I realized that a girl who keeps checking you out may not even have the intention to have you in her life… as it requires inconvenient things like commitment!
My worth in marriage market is now next to zero…
I don’t have any self esteem left and my self image is horrible. I feel like a worthless weight on this planet and a thief of oxygen. Every day is spent in horrendous ruminations about my pathetic life and comparing it with how great it was when I was young.
I NEVER IMAGINED that I will be in this kind of situation as I always thought I deserved a great life.

我走近了幾個(gè)對我感興趣的女孩，但她們立即啟動(dòng)了她們的婊子模式……她們的行為就像我不應(yīng)該和她們說話一樣！在這個(gè)問題上，我經(jīng)歷了很多尷尬的事情，我不明白人為什么有兩張臉。我意思到，一個(gè)一直在關(guān)注你的女孩，可能從來沒有打算在她的生活中擁有你……因?yàn)檫@需要像承諾這樣不方便的事情！
我在婚姻市場的價(jià)值現(xiàn)在幾乎為零……
我沒有任何自尊了，我的自我形象很糟糕。我覺得自己是這個(gè)星球上一個(gè)毫無價(jià)值的砝碼，一個(gè)氧氣的小偷。每天都在可怕地沉思我可憐的生活，并將其與我年輕時(shí)的生活相比。
我從來沒有想過我會(huì)處于這種情況，因?yàn)槲乙恢闭J(rèn)為我應(yīng)該得到一個(gè)偉大的生活。

I am so much in grief that I am unable to concentrate on my job. My pay is less and I am ashamed as hell because my friends are earning much better! They still can’t believe that I am in such a shitty state. I am unmarried, unsettled and worthless now… thanks to my depression. It was mostly about bad genes… but I have to bear it till I die. I don’t even want to cure my depression after I saw my own career collapsing in front me as I watched helplessly.
My depression is damaging my mind and I realized that it is called depression when my career was almost over… My memory is weakening and I am unable to respond crisply most of the times. My mind is foggy even after giving up Finasteride and I have terrible suicidal thoughts… I have become toxic and it is destroying my social image too.. but I feel apathetic to almost everything.
I still get glances from girls… but I don’t have any feelings left in me… I feel I should have taken advantage of the attention I got when I was younger. I got the worst deal from all sides!
My friends still think I am a deserving guy… but I feel I don’t deserve any good in life…

我太傷心了，無法專心工作。我的工資少了，我感到非常羞愧，因?yàn)槲业呐笥褌儝甑煤枚嗔耍∷麄內(nèi)匀粺o法相信我處于如此糟糕的狀態(tài)。多虧了我的抑郁癥，我現(xiàn)在未婚，不安定，一文不值。這主要是關(guān)于壞基因……但我必須忍受到死。當(dāng)我無助地看著自己的職業(yè)生涯在我面前崩潰時(shí)，我甚至不想治愈我的抑郁癥。
我的抑郁癥正在損害我的心智，當(dāng)我的職業(yè)生涯即將結(jié)束時(shí)，我意識(shí)到這被稱為抑郁癥……我的記憶力正在減弱，大多數(shù)時(shí)候我都無法做出清晰的反應(yīng)。即使在放棄非那雄胺后，我的頭腦仍然模糊，我有可怕的自殺想法……我變得有毒，這也在破壞我的社會(huì)形象……但我?guī)缀鯇σ磺卸几械嚼淠?br /> 我仍然受到女孩們的目光……但我沒有任何感覺……我覺得我應(yīng)該利用我年輕時(shí)受到的關(guān)注。我得到了各方面最糟糕的交易！
我的朋友們?nèi)匀徽J(rèn)為我是一個(gè)值得擁有的人……但我覺得我不值得擁有任何美好的生活……